Well, what now?

While I haven't completely ruled out the possibility of getting myself to Columbus next semester, it's really not looking good right now. There are just too many things I have to concern myself with right now, and I don't think I can get everything sorted out in terms of money, paperwork, financial aid/scholarships, etc., while still taking care of a bunch of new responsibilities at home right now. The good news? I'm not super bummed out about it. I had actually been rethinking college for a bit lately. Don't get me wrong, I'm not just throwing in the towel and relegating myself to a life of working retail; I still have big things I plan on accomplishing. I know there were several reasons why I've been drawn back to Ohio lately, and I suppose it's time I moved on in some regards. I've been slowly cutting off ties with old friends lately, and I guess I haven't had a real conversation with friends back home in a few months. I think this blog has slowly become my only emotional outlet, so I want to take a minute to thank my readers (all 3 of you) for taking the time to read and offer opinions/insights/general banter. I really appreciate all of the above!

So what now? Not entirely sure. I know I want to dedicate more time and energy to writing music, and I know I've been saying this for kind of a while, but I will really clamp down on this soon. I think I'll even post some of that here. I will start with a cover or two sometime this week, and hopefully post an original song or two before the end of the month.  Once I've taken care of a few bills, and done some Christmas shopping (I guess I can never really escape it), I will begin amassing instruments! I think I will begin with a drum kit or keyboard, followed by a violin, and really just take it from there. I am still not all that fond of living in Houston, but I think I can deal with it so long as I'm working towards something, you know? I know undertaking a musical endeavour isn't exactly a smart decision (probably the last thing my parents will want to hear), but I really feel it's something I need to get out of my system. Worst case scenario, I'll be able to say I did this, and hopefully had some good times growing up in the next half a year, and I'll be ready to get myself back to college in August instead of January. I just need to be young again, and maybe stir up a little something stupid. Best case scenario? I guess the sky is the limit there. I may stick around in Houston, or try and make my way out to Austin for a change of scenery in a few months, but either way, I think it's a good time I moved out, if I can make ends meet financially upon doing so. I suppose I'll have to go with whatever is plausible.

Sometimes I try and sound a bit more eloquent when I write (so as to sound a bit less stupid), but I guess tonight's post became a bit of a stream-of-consciousness sort of deal. Fortunately, I have no work until Saturday, so I'll hopefully be able to get some rest and straighten my head out a bit, making for a more interesting/better worded follow up to this post later this week.